How Are YOU Healing?

[lonelyhousewife35]

What are you doing for yourself to heal?
I found myself getting sucked in by trying to find out more since he dosen't want to come clean. I felt disgusting creating an announoumous screen name and email and responding to online ads that resembeled the ones he has placed in the past. I hated myself for sinking to his level. So I decided to find this support group instead. I also created a group on youtube, and I made a music video about how much he hurt me. This is going to be my healing process. I will NOT allow myself to fall victim anylonger. He can keep his secrets and keep lieing to himself and to me, I am not interested in digging anylonger because it only hurts me, I want to heal, I want to move on.

[lonelyhousewife35]

Here is the link for anyone interested in seeing my video I made. I feel a huge weight lifted after completeing it. I am also doing alot of writing too. He might not be interested in my feelings, but I know I'm not the only one who feels this way, I need friends who understand my pain.

http://www.youtube.com/profile?user=lonelyhousewife35

[Jewel]

I watched your video. Good for you for doing your best to move on. I really liked your video, and even more so the emotional response that I felt when I watched it.

[Becky]

Your video was AWESOME. I watched it 3 times in a row. Made me cry each time. I can tell you love your daughter. Just keep her close and love her with all your heart. You may have to be mommy and daddy to her, but she will know what love is for sure!!! Again, I applaud your work with the video. Love ya :)

[lonelyhousewife35]

I watched your video. Good for you for doing your best to move on. I really liked your video, and even more so the emotional response that I felt when I watched it.

Thank you... It really released alot of pain for me.

[lonelyhousewife35]

Your video was AWESOME. I watched it 3 times in a row. Made me cry each time. I can tell you love your daughter. Just keep her close and love her with all your heart. You may have to be mommy and daddy to her, but she will know what love is for sure!!! Again, I applaud your work with the video. Love ya :)

[FONT="Arial"]Thank you Becky... when you said "she will know what love is for sure!!!" You hit the nail on the spot. It's not my husbands fault, he grew up in an emotionless family, and so ofcourse he would not even begin to comprehend my love, my emotions, and feelings. It only makes sense he would dispose my "love" as me being "mental"... "crazy" "psyco"... but one thing is for sure thank god my baby girl will know she has one parent with depth of feeling and her emotions and feelings will never be disposed or discounted as if what she thinks and feels is not important.

It means so much to me that people like YOU get it! Thank you so much for your response.

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[SerenBaker]

We split up in '98, and I know I went through quite a while of anger and bitterness and all that stuff. Mostly, it was just living day to day that got me through, and then I became friends with a man I've known casually for years and he got me going to church and to Cursillo, and he's become a rock for me to lean on when I need to. Mind you, I am also there for him when things are tough.

[savannah]

I have just now watched your video. I really liked the part where the plane was flying by as you looked through the book, lh. Very poignant, and very telling. I guess a lot of us have felt that way.

Are things looking up today? Hope you are doing ok.